1505

1505 is the number of the building where the RE is located. I sat there in the parking lot staring at the number. What was the doctor going to say? Would he have compassion or would he just be a mad scientist? My heart was coming out of my chest, my stomach had massive butterflies, and my mind was in disbelief. Really? Are we really going to an infertility specialist? As I sat there waiting on my husband, I read me devotion on my phone entitled There's No Way. Ha! How ironic because this is how I always feel. There is no way we will get pregnant, there is no way an infertility treatment will work, there is no way we will adopt, there is no way we will come up with all of this money. The key verse was Ephesians 3:20-21 "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagined, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!" When I saw this verse, I smiled and laughed to myself because it was the same verse that days before I had written on a note card to take with me every where I go. God is telling me something! He is asking me do you trust that I am in control of this? He is saying I am capable of making the impossible happen! I am BIGGER than this!!

We walked into the office to be greeted with "So, what's your story?" Talk about compassionate! For the next couple of hours, we discussed several things with the doctor. As of right now, we both have to get some more testing done. My husband has to get some more blood work and another semen analysis while I have to get blood work and a test called Femvue done which checks to see if my fallopian tubes are open and my uterus. Thank goodness our insurance will pay for the diagnostic testing! The doctor told me that my AMH was low for age but not critical which was good news! He said that a lot of my husband's issues can be helped or fixed. He said that it is a positive thing that we came now. By the end of July we should have all of the test completed and more of a clear idea as to what our options will be. The two options mentioned by the doctor was taking the fertility drug called Clomid while completing an IUI and option two IVF.

Pro for Clomid/IUI= Less invasive and LESS EXPENSIVE

Con for Clomid/IUI= It won't help us in the future if we wanted to try and get pregnant. Because of my low AMH level if we were to wait until I am lets just say 30 it may be too late.

Pro for IVF= It will help us in the future. We could freeze eggs and/or embryos and use them later. (I don't know how I feel about any of this currently. I would have to know more about how the embryos are handled and treated.) 70%-50% chance of it being successful because of my age.

Con for IVF= Very invasive, very expensive, may not work

All in all, our experience was surreal and very overwhelming. The office was very informative and compassionate with any questions and concerns we had. Please just PRAY. That's pretty much all I know to do.